Everyday I ask myself why does it have to be so hard for me to accept my achievements as my own? I don’t remember the last time i congratulated myself for anything, and now I find that I am praying God to give me one reason to feel proud of myself. Finding people around me with a comparatively peaceful brain and a happy smile doesn’t actually make me feel jealous. Instead it pains me when i realize that they are more grateful to God for the gifts. I have been stupid enough in certain occasions to blame Him of partiality, and more so at present to actually accept that I am never going to overcome that feeling. It sure is easy to advise others than to solve your own problems. My lack of confidence in everything I do leads me into a situation where I appear like a forcefully projected flop movie.